Okay, so this blog is not going to show the nicest or bubbliest side of me, and I am sorry. But I need to confess something. I have THE shortest fuze when it comes to living daily life. And I am worried it is a DISEASE or some sort of deep problem I am all alone in!
I woke up this morning, hoping to do my daily routine: Make coffee, let the puppy out, get the fire going, and do some pilates/abs/what-ever I am feeling (I am apparently on this health kick?), take a shower, drink my coffee while I get dressed & ready for the day.
WELL --- today was not starting out so well.
First, we were out of coffee. Now, I believe this is the first time this has EVER happened to me. Then, the internet was not working. I am shocked at how much I was taken back by this. WHAT... no facebook check? WHAT... no online pilates video? WHAT... no Youtube to listen to some music? WHAT... my life... is ruined?? THATS HOW IT FELT! WHYYYYYY!! I have no idea.
Okay, now that I am officially stripped of any dignity, I will go on to say that I do not know how to iron. I mean, I actually cannot and have attempted many times. So, I go to get dressed, yes, with a full closet of lovely clothing, but I REALLY wanted to wear this new blue blouse my Mother gave me last week-end. But, of course, it was not ironed. NOW WHAT.
I was so mad by this point, an old ratty hoodie was chosen. WHY? I have no idea, I have plenty of nice things to wear, but I chose the nastiest thing I could find, to suit my mood of course.
Well, here's the kicker. I ended up going through some exercises anyways... despite my internet crisis -- but when I get on the scale? 2 POUNDS GAINED... that can't be!!
Ohhhh wait a second, Halloween just passed...and a week-end at my Mothers just passed, and I supose those mini-chocolate bars, bandfulls of caramel corn & orange soda really matter.
Anyway, my husband gets up, to fix the internet in about 2 seconds (something was not plugged in??), offers to drive me to school & buy me my dose of sanity on the way (mmmm Tims). But still I sit here, waiting for an exam, and after getting lectured by the Concurrent Ed. ladies AGAIN about deadlines & special forms & mumbo jumbo I really do not care about, and I am still in this terrible mood.
But when I really think about this, and try to see my glass half full (even though my coffee cup is loooong empty), I am not so mad. In fact, I feel pretty good. I HAVE clothes on, I was able to be warm this morning when I woke up, I have a husband that will do ANYTHING in the world to take care of me and make me feel like a princess, and of course... the mini chocolate bar I found in my coat pocket just a minute ago (it's only 1!). So.. what I am trying to get through here, if maybe just for my own concious, is that I am a blessed woman --- and I need to start acting like one.
It's so tough being worked up and so concumed with the daily luxeries I get used to, and then when one, or a few are not available --- my entire day is thrown off.
So, Jenna... pull it together, and make sure that this day is for the glory of the Lord, and not the convenience of yourself.
I am sorry for anybody that actually sat and read this entire thing, and hope nobody thinks I am crazy, or pathetic... or a "material girl, in a material world" like my husband likes to sing sometimes.
But.. maybe I am.
- Jenna Dowling
- Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.
4 comments:
wow! I know what your getting at in this blog!
I have been there and done that, and it is just as bad because I have been to third world countries and seen the poverty! and I act as if it is the end of the world! When truly it isn't! I'm glad you realized that it wasn't the end of the world!
love megan
Hmmm. I have had those days. I really have. More often than I wish to admit. It's so tough when you almost feel outside of yourself and 'out of control'. Those days seem to come along about once a month. :)
I think the reactions that we have when our daily luxuries are not working for us tend to reveal our idolatry. That at some level we think we deserve all we have, when in reality...we don't.
You are not alone on those days.
We have all been there that's for sure.
Sometimes when no matter what I try to do(even pray)I fail,cause it's one of those days.
So what I do in the end is say Lord not doing it today.I need you to do it for me. Get me through and as always it amazes me how my day tends to be so great within hours. I love the fact that the Lord even listens to my frustrations.
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